Thursday, May 14, 2015

Worth It

Sitting in the living room, I put my book down with a sigh. I should have stayed home. This felt awkward and a bit tense. Well, I was here now.
When my mom stepped close to me to get something, I didn't try to stop myself from letting her know how I felt. "I hate this," I whispered. "I wish I would have stayed home."
Curling up in the chair with a sigh, I tried to talk to my nephew, but he was too busy playing with my younger brothers; my sister was focused on her book. Mom talked with my oldest sister, Heidi, in the bedroom.
I quietly gave myself over to my complaints. I'm only here because Mom wanted me to help with the kids. Why did I offer to help? I should have let her figure something else out!
I wanted to hold the baby, but was that going to happen? I wanted to spend time with Kyla and Kenny, but they were focused on something else.
 
Heidi left, and just then Mom got a phone call. She handed baby Marlee over to me, and then something changed.
As I held her, my almost five month-old niece whom I have not gotten to spend much time with, something changed as I realized...
This is worth it. Getting to have one-sided conversations with Marlee and see her smile is worth it.
 

 
Helping to feed her her bottle is worth it, too. Kissing her sweet, tiny head and fingers is worth it.
Hearing her big sister sweetly talk to her and love on her is worth it.
 

 
Doing puzzles with Kyla and Kenny and watching them while my mom takes Tim to choir is worth it.
Playing with them in the big chair is worth it, even if I did get a bit banged up in the process. :)
 
 
Cuddling up with Kyla under a cozy blanket while she plays her game and I read a book is worth it.
 
 

 
 
Hearing the excitement in Kyla's voice as she shows us her new American Girl doll is worth it.
 
 
Seeing Marlee's sweet smiles for her Uncle Noah, and her love for him and his for her, is worth it.
 
 
 These three are so worth my afternoon and evening. Because God blessed me by making them my nieces and nephew. And because I love them.
 
 
"Give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you."
 
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20 comments:

  1. Christine, this is precious! And in the pictures you look truly joyful - so beautiful! Good post :)

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    1. Aww, thanks, Michaela! And how could I not be joyful while holding a little bundle of such sweetness? <3
      Thank you so much for leaving a comment! Hope you have a wonderful night. :)

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  2. I love this post! Thanks for honestly sharing your heart and thoughts. Love the pictures. Whoever took them is a gifted photographer! (wink). :) Love you! <3

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    1. Thanks, Mom! And yes...WHOEVER took those pictures is very talented. Love you, too!

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  3. Beautiful post Christine! I love the pictures too :)

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    1. Aww, thanks, Simizat! My mom (in case you didn't pick this up from the above comments) took them! She loves photography. :)

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  4. That was so awesome, Christine! Marlee is adorable. :p

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    1. Thanks, Elisabeth! And I completely agree....:) I need updated pictures of your cousin! :d

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    2. I'm going to have to find some! I don't see Jack very often, but I can probably find a picture of both of them! :)

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  5. Christine, this is beautiful. You had me in tears! Thanks for sharing!

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    1. Thank you so much for leaving a comment, Mrs. Sullivan! I was pretty ashamed of the way I acted, and I can't say it was the last time I said what I was thinking when I shouldn't have. It's definitely something I need to work on, being thankful for what I have and not complaining about what I'm not happy about. :)

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  6. You have no idea how many times I have thought the same... And I still didn't learn my lesson. But I'm getting there. It's really so humbling when you finally understand how WORTH IT it is..

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    1. I know...I don't think I've fully learned my lesson yet. I will probably make the same mistake again. But hopefully, I will make it less often. :)

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  7. I love this post so much!! You wrote it so well Christine and your neice is adorable!!! :)

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    1. Aww thanks, Shelby! And yes, I would agree...she is very sweet. <3

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  8. Aww there is a BABY! They are so cute! I wish I had babies around my house :( I love this post! Also, can you do me a favor by entering my blog contest. It's a photography and a story contest. It would mean a lot because I don't have a lot of entries. Check out my blog for more information. The most unique story wins a notebook or candy!
    ~Ellie;P
    www.uniquelyyou1.blogpsot.com

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    1. Hi, Ellie! Thanks for stopping by. I'll have to take a look at your contest. :) I know! I wish I could have a baby in my house, too. (Marlee is my niece). She is pretty cute, though, so that makes up for the fact that she doesn't live with me! :)

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